Fri Dec 11, 2009
So the fantabulous AAG is going to AVN this year in January. We were chatting about it this morning, and it sounds like all kinds of cool people are going, like Monk, and other sex bloggers and stuff. I haven’t been to an AVN conference since – oh, I think 2001? Or maybe it was 2000. All of a sudden it sounds sort of fun though. I wonder how much has changed, and how much has stayed the same.
The first one I went to in 1998 was a bit of a shock to the system. I was just this single mom who had started this website that was all of a sudden popular. I didn’t know anything about the business side of porn, or making money from talking about sex, or performing sex. It was eye-opening to say the least. There were people there like me, then there were people who embodied the media stereotype of “porn star” and just about everything in between.
I sort of got sucked in to it all. From 98 – 2001, I started doing a bit of modeling for my own site, and for other photographers. I had a longtime journal reader (who sadly, has passed away) write me to say “be careful what you pretend to be, you end up becoming it.” But I have to say it was totally a blast letting that side of myself come out. Everyone has so many facets, and so many of us are stuck only getting to show one side to people. A balanced alter-ego is a wonderful thing.
Every once in awhile, Elliott and I talk about maybe going to some industry things again, getting re-involved. I don’t know whether that will happen, but I hope AAG has a blast going. I’ll be thinking of her fondly. (Oh, and she’ll have a bit of JG swag to hand out while there too. yay!)